Moving

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Blessings

Humbled

I sit here tonight completely speechless from the events of the last couple days. There has been a big issue in my life that I have been dealing with for many years. After years of prayer and patients, I began the process of eliminating the hopes and dreams when it comes to the issue. I have constantly held Psalm 37:4 in front of me as I have struggled with where God was leading me in this area of my life. "Delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." A powerful verse that has now began to make more of an impact in my life that I ever thought imaginable. After basically giving up, I get a note from a friend. Of what was said, which will not be shared here, has given new meaning to my life; they have no clue of the meaning of their words. God is at work, though I haven't seen any physical evidence of it over the years. But it has been an act and step of faith that has brought me thus far and it is faith that will continue with me on this journey. The answer from God through a friend is only one step of many that are to come. I know God knows my heart and if He is leading me to this, I am to follow. So, now it is the task to a) continue to follow God with this issue and b) start rebuilding what I began to tear down as I began to lose hope. I think the first is going to be easier to do than the second.
God Bless!

Expectations

It is interesting to go through life when life is not what you had expected it to be. I had expectations for college, well many of those did not happen. I had expectations for after college, which many are not happening like I had thought. I have said for many years that I may have my ideas for how I think that things are going to happen in my life. Well, once again, I am a good example of how human nature has nothing compared to God's will for a person's life. I sit here tonight, confused and lost in where God is leading me in life. It sometimes feels like nothing is going in my favor in life and sometimes I wonder what I am doing. But it takes a constant reminding that God is in control and that He knows what He is doing. Though, I do it anyway, I really don't have anything to worry about and that everything is going to happen in accordance to His will. So I sit. And wait. To see where God is going to lead me in life.

God Bless

Change

I sit here in an apartment in the Uptown neighborhood of Chicago. It's a Sunday morning, the rest of the family is at church, I am home due to the uneventful killer headache last night. Not too happy about that, but it happens. Down here for the weekend visiting the brothers and being together as a family. It's been a great time, except for having vehicle problems on the way down. Oh well. Mom and the grandparents head back today, dad and I will head back on Tuesday after the vehicle gets fixed.
Life has been interesting to say the least lately. Graduated from college in December. Worked on a dairy farm for a little over a month. Now am unemployed and waiting to see where God is leading me next. It has been quite a transition going from the business of a collegiate routine to a life on no routine, though I do have plenty to do, it just changes everyday. It is tough not to be around my friends on a daily basis. It's tough somedays without them around.
Lots of thoughts are running through my mind these days. As life changes, so does one's perspective as you come to a fuller realization on what life is actually all about and how it makes you see things in a different manner. But as I question life and where it is going, I know that I have the guidence of Christ and that I do not have to do anything on my own. It is His hands that I can rest in with full assurance that everything will come about in accordance to His will. Though many say this type of a saying over and over again, and even live it as well. Everyone will realize eventually that it is a whole lot different when it is said in words compared to being applied in life. It is tough to be patient and wait for God's leading, but I know that it will be worth the wait in the end. I have to remind myself daily that God is in control right now and that everything WILL happen the way that He wants it to.
God Bless.