Expectations

It is interesting to go through life when life is not what you had expected it to be. I had expectations for college, well many of those did not happen. I had expectations for after college, which many are not happening like I had thought. I have said for many years that I may have my ideas for how I think that things are going to happen in my life. Well, once again, I am a good example of how human nature has nothing compared to God's will for a person's life. I sit here tonight, confused and lost in where God is leading me in life. It sometimes feels like nothing is going in my favor in life and sometimes I wonder what I am doing. But it takes a constant reminding that God is in control and that He knows what He is doing. Though, I do it anyway, I really don't have anything to worry about and that everything is going to happen in accordance to His will. So I sit. And wait. To see where God is going to lead me in life.

God Bless

Change

I sit here in an apartment in the Uptown neighborhood of Chicago. It's a Sunday morning, the rest of the family is at church, I am home due to the uneventful killer headache last night. Not too happy about that, but it happens. Down here for the weekend visiting the brothers and being together as a family. It's been a great time, except for having vehicle problems on the way down. Oh well. Mom and the grandparents head back today, dad and I will head back on Tuesday after the vehicle gets fixed.
Life has been interesting to say the least lately. Graduated from college in December. Worked on a dairy farm for a little over a month. Now am unemployed and waiting to see where God is leading me next. It has been quite a transition going from the business of a collegiate routine to a life on no routine, though I do have plenty to do, it just changes everyday. It is tough not to be around my friends on a daily basis. It's tough somedays without them around.
Lots of thoughts are running through my mind these days. As life changes, so does one's perspective as you come to a fuller realization on what life is actually all about and how it makes you see things in a different manner. But as I question life and where it is going, I know that I have the guidence of Christ and that I do not have to do anything on my own. It is His hands that I can rest in with full assurance that everything will come about in accordance to His will. Though many say this type of a saying over and over again, and even live it as well. Everyone will realize eventually that it is a whole lot different when it is said in words compared to being applied in life. It is tough to be patient and wait for God's leading, but I know that it will be worth the wait in the end. I have to remind myself daily that God is in control right now and that everything WILL happen the way that He wants it to.
God Bless.